the option of adoption

I decided a few years ago that i didn't ever want to have my own children (like physically birth them). Don't get me wrong, i can't wait to be a mom but i don't care to have little ones who carry my dna and all. I have some conditions and such that WILL be passed down generationally and some big complications that would alter my physical state if i even did get pregnant so i plan to fill my home with children who were brought into the world by parents who didn't want them, or couldn't keep them.

Growing up we had foster kids (as far back as i can remember) infact, my younger brother, who is now 19 came to us at the age of 6 months, and we adopted him. My mom also worked as an international adoption agent for Holt for about 10 years, and i had the privilage of babysitting alot of the kids that her families adopted, they were just like any other kids, maybe their eyes looked different or their skin was a bit darker but there was no question of who they belonged to.

Did you know that if just 7% of christian adopted an orphan there would be no more orphans, granted i know not all orphans are availible for adoption and there would continue to be more born day after day but it seems such a simple soultion... 7% is such a small number, to make such a huge impact.

anyhow i'm still the same single aileen, no guy in my life at the moment and therefore no closer to the children that will someday be mine but- i just wanted to throw this out there, it was on my heart today.

--leen

an ACTUAL update

(me and my new pink dress, and old red wig... i've given up on hoping that my REAL hair will ever grow to be long agian)


how many times have i been asked in the last week "what have you been up to"... oy, so i decided to write a blog on it.

first first- before the REAL updates, YES the blue subaru has been repainted, by brush this time, a two-toned terquise and it looks great if i do say so myself!

1- i'm still watching rohan, 3 afternoons a week, i only watch him 10 hours a week but it's been a year and a half now and i've fallen in love with the little guy so i can't leave him and find a full time nanny job

2- i did just get a second job, also about 10 hours a week, helping out a friend of my mom's at her flag and banner shop, a bunch of peeling and sewing and random stuff like that

3- i'm building a website on how to live the best life (sorta a way to be the life coach i long to be without having to go to school) it's located at www.bestbestlife.com and its a work in progress, i spend about 6-8 hours a week on it.

4- i'm enjoying the sunshine and dreaming about traveling the us... if it's God's will he'll make a way and if not i suppose i'll go on dreaming for a few more years, maybe i'll have to visit those whom i know and love scattered around the globe instead...

simply put i'm holding loose to my plans and expectations for what my life should be or what it could be (or what i thought it's be now at the ripe age of 25), i'm following the dreams Gods put in me and making sure the sails are up- that i'll catch the wind and sail luff (closer to the wind)... it's amazing to feel so content with my jobs, with my status (still single and perfectly ok with it, perhaps its because i know i won't ever be ready to be the woman or wife God wants me to be until i learn to be ok with being just me first), living situation (still in the parents house... weeding through the boxes of junk i've accumulated over the years).

i sleep in almost every morning, work out or walk the butte a few times a week, and low and behold (though i have not yet mastered the art of my lovely pink guitar) i've been writing songs like crazy latley (on the trusty old piano)... i am quite simply living in the sweet spot!!!!

hope that answers all your questions.
much love
--aileen

(ps and after a year or two of carrying my camera EVERYWHERE with me it finally broke and i haven't the funds to replace it just yet so this summer may be alot less eventful for the photo updates and my editing program is on the fritz with the rest of my pc so yah...:(

update of sorts

so i decided that i'm just gonna be one of those people who has more than one blog, since i spend the bulk of my day with a 3 year old who dosn't really care to hear my view of the world and my woes, i find i have plenty to write about.

-first i thought i'd start with a funny story, saterday night i went to a wedding, many friends were there to whitness the lovely wedding of dani and kevin... fish was the caterer, anyhow i ate food and enjoyed every bite... went home a few hours later and as i sliped into sleep i couldn't stop rubbing my eye, it hurt really bad, none the less i fell asleep, and awoke at 9 (two hours earilier than i had planned) to go to the bathroom and happend to glimps into the mirror to see my right eye completly swollen shut... woe is me. this has actually happened once before, when i discovered that i love pistachios and then discovered the same day that i was allergic, but that time my right cheek and throat also swelled, anyhow, it was a fun day of taking drugs to lessen the swelling and my mom continually checking to see how it was. about 2, i finally could open my eye and by 5 (when i had to leave the house to babysit) it was looking just a little puffy (but still i put on a hat and pulled it low to conseal my silly looking face). not sure what it was that i ate, i don't think there were nuts in any of it but who knows. ... i have a picture on my phone (so if you wanna see it ask...) i can't upload any new pics at the moment cause my camera and computer are both broken... my luck

(so here's an old pic that has nothing to do with anything... unless you (like me) love sour skittles in which case it's to make your mouth water)



which leads me to story two- not nearly as amusing but still... i went camping a few weeks ago (that's not the story, though i do slightly HATE camping so of course there are stories to be told from that... perhaps another time) anyhow my camera went camping too... since my trusty little kodak goes everywhere i go.. i whipped it out to get a picture of my brother-in-law chad trying to stuff a fullsize air matress into a small pup tent (etched in my mind)and discoverd that the lense is broken, won't open...even when i try to help it. so i figured, after a year and a half of going everywhere with me (got it on my 24th b-day) that i'd invest in getting the camera of my dreams.... drumroll please... a nikon, i'm saving all the money i get from side jobs this summer and whatever i have from the yardsale after i pay the stupid irs... soon i shall have my beloved camera, now if only i could get my computer up and running again so i can once again presume my hermit life of editing photos into the night.

and the last story for this blog...


it's about my little doggy sunny, she looks like a puppy but she's actually 6 and a half, i've had her for about 6 years (she's my baby), anyhow the other day i walked the butte with amy, and when i walk from home i take sunny, somehow the little doggy makes me feel safer (she's real loud, and kinda mean to people she dosn't know) so we met up and janelle (who decided to join us last minet) brought her dog, also a small dog , a boy dog names shawn but he's like 16 so...a bit older than sunny, now sunny dosn't normally like other dogs, she usually barks like crazy and stuff but she kinda liked shawn, sorta alot, she cept trying to walk by him and stuff and shawn was having none of it, he kept walking the other way... it was really funny, my doggy has a crush, thought i'd share that with all of you.

and that's if for the ramble session today, hope i didnt' bore you all to much
tah
--aileen